Step by Step

So its been quite a while since my last post. Its amazing how fast time can go by. So in regards to the adoption process, I'm about to send in the final paperwork for the loan so that I can finance this adoption. Its a little daunting to say the least, but as a friend said, "the best investment I'll ever make". So here it goes. I also have to complete 3 online courses for my home study which I finally completed over Christmas and yesterday. So I keep feeling like I'm moving down the road getting step by step closer to my heart. Now I need to finish my life story (pretty much this means write down everything that has affected who you are in your life, all 32 years worth). Its a lot of writing and I do this for a living. I start writing and then think, do they really want to know all this stuff. But then I think yes, yes they do, so I keep writing. Needless to say it isn't something I've been able to sit down and just do in a matter of hours. Its taking more time than I'd like. I also am waiting on getting my medical down, so that will be mid January. Like I said I feel like its all coming together. Although I must say that I keep thinking this is going to easy, although I've just started my compiling the dossier information which is on top of the home study which goes to Ethiopia for approval. And I hear from other friends who've adopted that the dossier is usually the place where you get tripped up. So I shall see. Hope all of you had a Merry Christmas and Have a Wonderful New Year!

Waiting with Anticipation

So yesterday I went to a Eucharist service, where the priest spoke about this Advent season. That we should be waiting with anticipation, not passiveness. That when we see an opportunity we are to take it. I'm waiting with anticipation for this child whom I've never met. I'm waiting in anticipation for the time when I am holding this child in my arms. As I think about Mary waiting for the birth of Christ I wonder what she was thinking. This child was born in a stable, my child will be born where, I don't know. Christ was born to a single mother, my child will be placed with a single mother. I know there is really no true comparison. But I am waiting for this child to come to me with an amazing anticipation. With a joy and hope, and also this overwhelming wonder of who is this child. When will I meet this child and may I love this child and birth parents with a love that surpasses all understanding. For this child's birth parents love them and I already love them. For my Heart is in Ethiopia.

Paperchase

Where do you even start on this paperchase? I met with my home study agency today and got the paperwork from them, then received the guidebook from the placement agency with more paperwork. So this is what it feels like to "be pregnant". I've decided this is definitely my pregnancy. It might not be morning sickness, but it can be a pain. Being a social worker I knew what the paperwork would be like, but it is still pretty daunting. But will be more than worth it when I have a baby in my arms. So here goes "my pregnancy". My own form of labor and delivery.